Who am I?
Stop and feel

Who am I?

Hello there world.

 

First of all lets just put it out there that I’m a complete newbie when it comes to blogging and building and managing a website so please bear with me and be gentle.

The idea of this blog came as a way of releasing some tension and sharing my ongoing journey towards being a more mindful, happy and fit person. I don’t claim to be an expert on mindfulness, on the contrary I am far from it. I am learning and experiencing it as I continue with this blog. Nor am I a fitness guru, life coach, personal trainer or any other kind of motivational and inspired leader. Nope, I am a normal guy fast approaching forty who wants to get his head in order and what better way to do it than to share on a blog and open forum where I hope to meet other like minded people.

 

So a little about myself… As I mentioned above I am just on the right side of forty and for a long time now I have been stuck in a rut. I had been just existing for years. Always there to help others, always offering support and guidance to friends, family and colleagues but I was ignoring myself. I lost my way and through it all I forgot who I was and what I wanted in life. Have you ever been so focused on keeping others happy, or not wanting to be a burden but taking other’s burdens more than willingly? This was me and more.

Long story short… About four years ago I was diagnosed with depression. This came as a massive shock to me and I denied to myself that this was the case, I knew I was a strong person and it was impossible for me to have a mental health issue.

WRONG!!!

It wasn’t until I almost lost everything through my spiral of self-destruction and refusal to admit my problems that I sought help. I had broken up my long-term relationship, had money troubles, was struggling to keep my head above water at work and just hated myself. It was at this point I went back to my doctor and accepted the help that is out there.

I went to an amazing councillor who helped me to talk through my issues and recommended different coping strategies. I must say from my first experience of speaking to a councillor (before which I was very reluctant and sceptical) I was converted and vowed to try anything and do whatever it took to be happier in myself.

I thought I was alone in the way I felt until I read a few brilliant books and articles which changed my whole outlook and this is where mindfulness came into the equation. Mindfulness is the act of bringing your awareness to the present. Not worrying about whats going to happen in the future nor dwelling on what has happened. It is about feeling and becoming aware of yourself and your surroundings using one or all of your senses.

I will be writing various posts about my thoughts on mindfulness, books which have helped me, useful links and my own journey.

Then there is running. Running is something I always used to enjoy but with my issues, my busy life and a million other procrastinating excuses I stopped running. Stopped exercising altogether and once stopped, like anything it is extremely hard to get going again. After advice from my doctor and councillor I did try to exercise again and always started with the best intentions but before I knew it my doubts, lack of motivation and inane laziness got the better of me and I stopped.

I have been stopping and starting ever since and I would love to say I’m better now but it’s a work in progress.  I have however combined my daily mindfulness with my running and take time during my run to examine how I feel and this has helped so much. It is a long known fact that exercise helps boost low mood and learning to exercise and focus on my current mood can only be a good thing.

I will also be writing on my running and fitness journey and sharing my tips and thoughts. I chose the title of the blog Mindmyrun as a pun on the two aspects I will be mainly blogging about.

No body may ever read this but if I can inspire or help just one person then I will be the happiest man alive. If nobody rears it then the simple act of doing it makes me feel better and that’s all that matters really.

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